I realize that I have not blogged for a couple months. I’ve been really busy with school and such. It is now finals week, and things are even crazier.
It is currently 6:42 A.M. and I am wide awake, and had to blog about this.
Night terrors (vivid dreams, vivid nightmares and screaming in your sleep) are, from what I hear, very common amongst those with Moebius syndrome.
I don’t always know when I’ve been screaming in my sleep, but sometimes I wake up and I can recall the dream and that I had been. Well, on this particular morning, I know that I had been screaming in my sleep. I woke up just knowing. And then, I buried my head in my pillow in embarrassment.
You see, the thing is that I live in residence at college. Now I’m thinking, what if others heard? What were they thinking? Were they thinking that someone was getting killed? Like, my mom used to say that the screams were blood-curdling. I don’t know what to do, honestly. It’s such a feeling of shame and embarrassment.
Not that it matters what other people think, but I don’t want to worry people.
Maybe I’m over-reacting but I’m just wondering what people are thinking right now.
Night terrors really suck, and clearly, in my 23 years I have not gotten them under control.
Anyway, just another thing that comes along with haiving Moebius syndrome. I know that people without Moebius have night terrors too, but it’s more common among those with Moebius. I don’t know why, maybe it has something to do with one of the cranial nerves. I always attribute it to the face that I go into really deep sleeps, as in, no one can wake me up for anything.
It’s not a good thing when living in a dorm with paper-thin walls though. It’s embarrassing. And not that anyone should care what others think, but it is still embarrassing.