So, I know I haven’t posted a blog in almost a month. I’ve been trying to decide whether to delete this blog or not. I wanted to keep this blog private from family, just have it for friends and others to read. The reason for this is hard to explain. I just feel weird talking about this stuff with family. I can’t really explain it better than that. Words fail me when trying to explain it. I decided, though, not to delete this blog. I love my blog and I feel that it is really helpful in not only helping me work through things through writing but also letting people know what I am dealing with on any given day. Also, obviously, this blog is for raising awareness of Moebius Syndrome and everything that goes along with having it. This particular blog will touch on one of those things.
So, I’m not going to go into details but my 4 close friends will definitely know who it is that I am speaking of. There’s a guy. He has a face. And hair. He stands out because he is SLIGHTLY good looking. So, my dilemma is this. I’ve spoken about it with some of my Moebius friends already but I kind of want to be.. friends (?) with him. Fine. Go out with him. There, I said it. Now I just feel like a major loser announcing this on my blog. Wow. Congratulations to me. Anyway the dilemma is that not only do I feel super awkward now but I feel even more so because of the Moebius. I feel like there’s no way he’d ever be interested in me looking the way I do or sounding the way that I do. I know, Moebius friends, that you have told me that I shouldn’t think like that but I do. Am I correct in thinking this way? Probably. Maybe? Maybe not. I don’t know. We did have a lot of fun when my friends and I went out and he was there. He chatted with us a lot.. got asked some really hilarious questions like what his star sign is, and he was super cool about it. So again, this Moebius thing is getting in my way. I mean, I know that every girl probably goes through this awkwardness but I think, like I said to my Moebius friends, that having this magnifies it. Most girls (okay, not most) who hit on guys are pretty and outgoing and whatnot. Opposite of me. I kind of hide behind my friends when we go out. I think that we’re still going to go out on Saturday and I want this to be a turning point in my non-existant dating life. I’ll talk to the guys. Hopefully.
This blog post has been pretty pointless so I am just going to end it here by saying that I hope that not all men go for the same type of girl. And maybe I’d know if I would talk to one once in a while. Maybe if I drink enough..