2012. A pretty good year.

2012 has been quite a year. Probably the most productive and rewarding year I’ve had in a long time! At the beginning of the year, I finally finished grade 12 and got my high school diploma. In July of this year, I got my first ever job offer, hopefully the first of many. I got a lot closer with some really amazing friends. I attended my second Moebius Syndrome Conference in July of this year which was amazing and I met a lot of amazing new friends. I went on the vacation of a lifetime. Actually that happened twice this year. The first was a cruise to Hawaii to celebrate my completion of high school. That was an amazing trip, and Hawaii is the most beautiful, serene place. Definitely need to go back sometime very soon! The second trip was a cruise to Alaska with my mom. Alaska is definitely like no other place on earth. It is the one place that is, for the most part, untouched by man. It is a beautiful place full of peace and wonder. The water is clear and blue, the animals roam free and the people are so laid back. I love Alaska and really believe that if you can get there, you should definitely go. It is a place like no other. Also met some really amazing, inspiring people on that trip. It’s something that I will never forget.

Another great thing that happened this year was starting this blog. Anyone who has ever blogged before knows that it is a really great outlet. I can get everything that I am feeling out in writing. It’s like a diary that everyone can read. The main goal of this blog is to raise awareness of Moebius and the things that we experience, but it is also a place to just write whatever is on my mind. And it is a huge benefit! I love writing and it is great practise for the field that I want to get into career wise which is Journalism. What else happened this year..? Hmm.. Well, today I passed my drivers test and got my drivers license! This is a big, big deal for me. It’s something that I just kind of assumed would never happen because I have Moebius. I just thought that I can’t possibly get my license. I can’t possibly drive because of my difference. I know that a lot of my friends with Moebius drive but I just thought it will never happen for me. But it did today. I am so, so happy! Driving gives you so much more independence and freedom. It’s quite overwhelming and frightening at first but I’ve been practising every day and I think that has really been a big benefit. I know that it’ll be tough driving alone at first because I’ve never done it but I know that eventually it will all become easier. The thing is, even if I don’t want to drive by myself, I know that I now can because I have my license. This will be a life changer, that’s for sure.

So anyway, 2012 has overall be a great year. Yes, there have been a few hardships along the way but overall it has been a really good year. My wish and goal is for 2013 to be the same. I want it to be an even bigger and better year than 2012 was. That will be hard to beat but I intend to accomplish a lot and get my life even more on track for the future.

To my Moebius friends.. and everyone else too: Never, ever give up! Even if you think that you won’t be able to do something, with perseverance and pursuit you can do anything that you set your mind to. You really can. In the words of Nickelback “It’s never too late to reach for the stars, regardless of who you are”. Yes, I did just quote Nickelback. They’re my favourite people ever. Them and Russell Brand. I wish I could hang out with them for a day, there would never be a dull moment that’s for sure.

Anyway, here’s to an amazing 2013! Live your dreams, guys, because you know that you can! Don’t ever give up!


New Years Resolutions. 2013.

So now that we know the world will not be ending in 2012, I thought it might be a good time to make some resolutions for the new year. I vow to make 2013 one of my best years ever. And you, my dear blog readers, can hold me to that vow! There are a lot of things that I want to accomplish this upcoming year, so here are some of them. I will probably keep adding to the list as the days go on. I seldom make new years resolutions but now that I have this blog, hopefully just seeing them typed out in front of me will encourage me to follow them. 

1) Get my drivers license. I’ve been procrastinating far too long for this. I’m working on it now. Practising every day and I hope to actually have it before the new year. I have my drivers test on the 27th. 

2) Get accepted into a Journalism program for post- secondary and start school in the fall. Again, I have procrastinated this for too long as well. It’s time to start doing something with my life. 

3) Make meaningful relationships. In the past year I have gotten a lot closer with a few of my best friends but I would love to branch out and create more friendships. And maybe a romantic relationship is in the cards for this year. Hopefully. There’s gotta be a guy out there somewhere. Well I know one that I would love. 

4) HEALTH. I really need to get healthier. I need to stop eating so much bad stuff. I vow to start some sort of exercise. Not sure what yet. Maybe yoga.. 

5) Meet Nickelback. Yeah, this is happening. 

6) Volunteer with a charity/organization that means something to me. Maybe helping animals. 

7) Do something epic for Moebius Syndrome Awareness Day in January. Something that will touch a lot of people and spread a lot of awareness. Ideas?? 

8) Get a job that is more geared toward my career path. Something in the Journalism field. 

First blog in a while..

So, I know I haven’t posted a blog in almost a month. I’ve been trying to decide whether to delete this blog or not. I wanted to keep this blog private from family, just have it for friends and others to read. The reason for this is hard to explain. I just feel weird talking about this stuff with family. I can’t really explain it better than that. Words fail me when trying to explain it. I decided, though, not to delete this blog. I love my blog and I feel that it is really helpful in not only helping me work through things through writing but also letting people know what I am dealing with on any given day. Also, obviously, this blog is for raising awareness of Moebius Syndrome and everything that goes along with having it. This particular blog will touch on one of those things.

So, I’m not going to go into details but my 4 close friends will definitely know who it is that I am speaking of. There’s a guy. He has a face. And hair. He stands out because he is SLIGHTLY good looking. So, my dilemma is this. I’ve spoken about it with some of my Moebius friends already but I kind of want to be.. friends (?) with him. Fine. Go out with him. There, I said it. Now I just feel like a major loser announcing this on my blog. Wow. Congratulations to me. Anyway the dilemma is that not only do I feel super awkward now but I feel even more so because of the Moebius. I feel like there’s no way he’d ever be interested in me looking the way I do or sounding the way that I do. I know, Moebius friends, that you have told me that I shouldn’t think like that but I do. Am I correct in thinking this way? Probably. Maybe? Maybe not. I don’t know. We did have a lot of fun when my friends and I went out and he was there. He chatted with us a lot.. got asked some really hilarious questions like what his star sign is, and he was super cool about it. So again, this Moebius thing is getting in my way. I mean, I know that every girl probably goes through this awkwardness but I think, like I said to my Moebius friends, that having this magnifies it. Most girls (okay, not most) who hit on guys are pretty and outgoing and whatnot. Opposite of me. I kind of hide behind my friends when we go out. I think that we’re still going to go out on Saturday and I want this to be a turning point in my non-existant dating life. I’ll talk to the guys. Hopefully.

This blog post has been pretty pointless so I am just going to end it here by saying that I hope that not all men go for the same type of girl. And maybe I’d know if I would talk to one once in a while. Maybe if I drink enough..